Yesterday I did my final exam in school. I'll no longer walk the halls of my high school.
It took 7 long years of primary school at Chatelherault Primary School and 6 hard years at Hamilton Grammar School (formerly known as Hamilton Academy) and it's all over. All those years of making friends in primary school and struggling to keep them in high school don't mean smeg anymore.
I can now say for sure that I prefered primary school over high school. Back in primary school the enemy was the person in charge - usually the teacher. In high school the other pupils were the enemy. I couldn't change in the PE changing rooms without the fear of getting bullied. I know that I consider Chatelherault primary school to be one of the best schools in Scotland, as I was told that we were as good as a private school when I went there, but the change in community was immense when I went to the Grammar.
Chatelherault had no neds but Hamilton Grammar was full of them. My biggest mistake was that I listened to them when they said it wasn't as bad as the movies. It was as bad - if not worse. At least if they try to stick your head down the toilets you could punch them in the balls. Name calling is far worse. You yourself may not care what they say but your friends do. It's gotten to the point where I don't tell people what I like anymore in fear of getting bullied for it. In primary school I trusted everybody and the people who are meant to ease the process thought it was better that way but it wasn't. I'm not the kind of person who would become like everybody else just to fit in. I liked the morals I learned in primary school. In my attempts to avoid bullying i got wrongfully diagnosed with aspergers and my school grades soared. I hated the neds and did my best to be different from them in every way - which meant paying attention in class. Luckly the friendships I made in Chatelherault payed off and I had loyal friends who stuck by me no matter what.
A long time ago, at the european premier of The Disappearance of Haruhi Suzumiya I believe, I was told to make the most of high school because it's one of the best times of your life. Thing is; that sense of community and that freedom are things I never had at high school. There was one time I had it though - primary school. I loved the people there, that sense of community and the freedom to do whatever you wanted that I got back then. When we were in P6 and P7 people would pretend to have sex with poles, jump from bunk bed to bunk bed, swanton bomb each other for constantly repeating a phrase, knock people out in pillow fights and hip thrust people in the playground so hard that we knocked them over. You can't do those kind of things in high school. Other primary schools considered us boring but they made school boring. Society and ettiquette are what really opresses us in modern day society. Those people who tell us to behave like adults are the true tyrants in modern day society.
Still, now I have left the simple part of life. I only did life so far because there was nothing else to do. I almost didn't expect to make it this far really. It really shows that the course I'm doing is for a career path into my childhood dream. I chose it because it was the only real thing i knew. I'm off to university. My grades will decide if I'm going to the one in my local town which will give me a really crappy degree or if I go to a city I currently don't like (the parking's crap, the shopping centres are empty, the nearest proper city is ages away and there's this huge hill in the middle of it which I'll probably die at if i try to cycle up or down it) which will give me a really good degree with the possibility of a job. Sony's invested enough into that uni so I'll be surprised if it leads me nowhere.
The internet as a whole seems to have gotten me through quite a lot in this time. Without newgrounds I would've probably killed myself (I've tried my best to forget why so I can't exactly say that that's not true) and without Touhou I would still be suicidal. The clock crew gave me B and a friendship I will never forget. Touhou made me stop wishing for death and made me start wishing for Yukari Yakumo to take me to Gensokyo instead. Falling in love did me wonders and gave me a reason to get up in the morning - even if it was simply to go back to sleep. 2006scape taught me why I enjoyed 2007 so much as well. I'm bound by oath to keep coming to newgrounds until I die or it dies. This site is my home. It's the only regularity I'll probably have through my whole life - unless I do move to Gensokyo which I'm still open to.
Now I have to get a job, go to uni, get another job, build a PC, learn how to sword fight and make games. Smeg knows what's going to happen next.